6. a whole thing

You laugh like it’s a whole thing.

It’s unnerving almost.

When you laugh, all of you does.

All of your atoms. 

You’re untouchable.

You ride out the aftershocks till they’re gone.

I didn’t know that I’d never seen you cry until I did.

It was strange. It was so much.

It was a whole thing. 

You can’t just fall into that. 

You just wake up at rock bottom and you live there till you’re at the top again.

Sometimes I think there’s no halfway with you.

You believe it so completely.

You believe what you’re feeling and it amazes you and infuriates you and I understand.

You don’t laugh or cry like anybody else but you’re the most human of us all.

It terrifies you.

You hate that you can hate anyone but you love that you can love someone.

You’re the most human of us all.

You’re so good.

You’re alive.

You’re everything.

Written: 1.5.2020

Posted: 3.5.2020